As I moved towards becoming an inner-life coach, I worried about my blog. I worried that my writings would be found, worried that the people I’m coaching and guiding will see how i think and what I’m like and how I feel and how I express it. So, I decided to make this website private. I tried to figure out if i could somehow delete everything that expressed an opinion or revealed a feeling. because I didn’t want that to be linked to this. even this post that I’m writing, for example. I would try to avoid any of this being discovered. I asked a few people and they more or less suggested the same thing.
Okay, I thought, I will write for myself. I will use all the journals I’ve been collecting and half-filling with stuff and put them all to even better use. In other words, I later realised, I will hide this part of myself. I will take my creativity offline and hide it from the eyes of the world, lest it be found to divulge too much.
What a burden it was becoming to embark upon that new journey!
How long was I going to keep this up? I got to thinking, What if the part of me that’s all creatrix wants to share herself with the world? Whether or not someone finds it, sees it, agrees with it, likes it. She doesn’t care about any of that. She just wants to write and maybe put it out there because she wants you to stumble upon it and read it and, then, if you like, be on your way. She’d be happy just having been part of your beautiful mind for that fleeting moment. And if you didn’t find it, well, at least it was out there. At least she did what she wanted to do. And isn’t that the least (and something huge) we can do for ourselves? Allow ourselves that freedom to create and allow ourselves to be seen whether somebody sees us or not?
What was I trying to hide anyway?