“You must never feel badly about making mistakes,” explained Reason quietly, “as long as you take the trouble to learn from them.”
—Norton Juster, ‘The Phantom Tollbooth’
How can it be that you have come such a long way, changed in so many ways, thought you’re wiser and know better, but still make the same mistakes you made 10 years ago?! How can you blame the situation or luck or destiny for it? How can you be mad at any other people involved? The only person who’s responsible for this is you. You have to analyse yourself and see where you went wrong. How did you find yourself here again?!
You’re the one who had to have learned your lessons. You’re the one who had to learn to be careful. You’re the one who should’ve learned to be smarter than this because you’re the one who has to look out for yourself, who has to protect your heart. No one else is going to do that for you. And neither should they! Others will look out for themselves. How can you hold that against them?! Others will want themselves in situations that work to their advantage, maybe consciously, maybe subconsciously. How can you expect any less?! It is up to you to avoid that mire. You have to take a look at it and say, “You know, this is too messy for me. I respectfully decline.” You have to stay away from it if you know what’s best for you. Why should anyone else do that for you? But, sometimes, even when you see flickers of the past’s murkiness in it, you still go on, treading dangerous waters, hoping it will somehow end differently. Have you learned nothing?!
And, so, when you find yourself repeating old mistakes that you’re supposed to have learned from you can only be furious with yourself. For not realising it. For not seeing through it. For assuming all others have your best interests at heart. For basing your trust on your faith in other people, not on facts. For if you’d looked at the facts which cannot lie and, logically, sensibly, considered them, you would have caught yourself before falling. You see, it isn’t those who forget the past who’re condemned to repeat it. It’s those who don’t learn from it.