Sometimes change is necessary. Sometimes you have to do what you never do and put your foot down. It may take time and it may not be easy, but it must be done, for your good, so that you like the person you see in the mirror. It’s important to refuse to do things you don’t enjoy one bit because otherwise it may lead to resentment. So we search for ourselves, for that perfect balance, for that state of contentment, satisfaction with our decisions, and no regrets.
But sometimes, usually when disillusioned, in the search to find ourselves we end up becoming an extreme version of our present selves. Opinions become stronger, viewpoints become too narrow or too wide leading us to accept each and every person or shun anyone who doesn’t agree with us. Little incidents that were once overlooked and forgotten are now analysed. People who were allowed to get away with murder are now confronted for their wrong, hurtful choice of words. It becomes a struggle to prove oneself by pushing against one’s own force of nature, by going against one’s own grain. It’s a struggle to be what one is not and can never be without internal dissonance. The unrest will cease upon acceptance.
Your own opinion of yourself matters. You can fight your nature all you want. You can be a different person if you want to be, if you try really hard, there’s no doubt about that and soon there it’ll be: You v2.0.1, new and improved. The question remains: Do you like this version of yourself?